I am leaving for Russia on the second of August. I can't wait.
I was in the mood to pack my suitcase when I had 15 days left. It's not that I don't like it here, it's just that it's so true that your home is where your heart is. I miss my parents. I miss my cat...
I need something to keep me strong. I had my soul cleansed a bit here, in Israel. I had some free time to be on my own away from troubles, on the beach, see different people, different scenery. I was afraid that when I would be back in Russia things would go back to be the same old way, the bad, sad old way. A person I love(d) had a choice to come with me, but he chose to go to Spain. We talked sometimes... He was kind of nice, polite for once. Now he's back to Russia and he pours all the badness on me, like he never said... what is so wrong with me that I can never let go?.. Really!..
I'm so upset that the last couple days, more even, four days, I was suffering from a very bad headache. I took pills, nothing helped. It ruined my plans, I didn't visit some places I wanted to visit... Now I feel all the bad and my fears crawling back on me...
Tomorrow I'm going to the Utopia Park - it's an orchids park in the kibbutz Bahan. I've lived there once. They have a pool there, may be we'l be allowed to enter... I have to check my camera - free some memor space and charge the batteries.
I'm still not feeling completely healthy so I won't be going to Akko, I'll spend the last days of my visit to Israel on the Haifa beach. I really like it there, and you can find amazing seashells there. So, yeah... Will be building up my tan. pity that I had no opportunity to tan topless... oh well.
I was in the mood to pack my suitcase when I had 15 days left. It's not that I don't like it here, it's just that it's so true that your home is where your heart is. I miss my parents. I miss my cat...
I need something to keep me strong. I had my soul cleansed a bit here, in Israel. I had some free time to be on my own away from troubles, on the beach, see different people, different scenery. I was afraid that when I would be back in Russia things would go back to be the same old way, the bad, sad old way. A person I love(d) had a choice to come with me, but he chose to go to Spain. We talked sometimes... He was kind of nice, polite for once. Now he's back to Russia and he pours all the badness on me, like he never said... what is so wrong with me that I can never let go?.. Really!..
I'm so upset that the last couple days, more even, four days, I was suffering from a very bad headache. I took pills, nothing helped. It ruined my plans, I didn't visit some places I wanted to visit... Now I feel all the bad and my fears crawling back on me...
Tomorrow I'm going to the Utopia Park - it's an orchids park in the kibbutz Bahan. I've lived there once. They have a pool there, may be we'l be allowed to enter... I have to check my camera - free some memor space and charge the batteries.
I'm still not feeling completely healthy so I won't be going to Akko, I'll spend the last days of my visit to Israel on the Haifa beach. I really like it there, and you can find amazing seashells there. So, yeah... Will be building up my tan. pity that I had no opportunity to tan topless... oh well.
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