I've grown up in Israel. So it happened that I had to leave with my parents when I was still a child. Now, 10 years later, I'm back to visit for the summer.
I've been here for more than a month already, since June 7. I have a little less than a month left to be here, till August 2. I'm at a loss of words, really. I'm not going to write about my time here in Israel, it's not a travel journal. I just feel the need to... may be I'm trying to escape this feeling of loneliness. I miss my parents, we lived here together. I talk to them every day on Skype, but still, I'd love to have them here, enjoy the sea, the walks in the parks... I miss my childhood.
I'm staying at my aunt's apartment. It's really nice, I love the balcony - it's big and open, she has a lot of plants here, and I like drinking coffee out, looking at all the other balconies, the people keeping their windows open, gathering with guests outside; watching the bats whiz by at night... I remember being really scared of them. I bet if one comes too close now I'd scream.
My aunt usually goes to the sea on Saturdays, but today we went to the "shouq" (an open market-place in Hebrew, and yes, I know the language) in the neighboring arab village, and she had some other business to attend to, and as there are no buses on Saturdays, I'm sitting at home and planning to go to the beach tomorrow. It's really sad being alone... I'm fine, I'm used to this, but when it's summer, and you're by the sea, and there's no-one to take a silly picture of you... yes, I can ask a stranger, but it's not the point...
So I'm entertaining myself by watching movies, reading books, listening to audiobooks from my summer to-read list for university (The Lord of The Rings is amazing!), and watching my youtube subscriptions. Talking of which... I really miss Elle's (AllThatGlitters21) videos. I'm so happy for her and her sister Blair. Girls that work so much and so hard... The don't give up and achieve what they want, doing what they like. I really-really need to work hard and follow their example, cause sometimes I feel I do what I have to, not what I like, and I'm too lazy and scared to follow my dreams. I know the girls are busy and they have their lives to live, I've never felt that they have to make videos for me because I'm subscribed to their channels. This is so stupid, I can hardly believe that people like this exist... well, it's not what I want to discuss. I miss the videos, but I understand. The good thing is that they have blogs, which is great! and it's one of the reasons why I am sitting here writing all this, things that won't make sense to anyone, but it's not even the point. If you want to read this, comment, contact me - you are welcome, but I'm not seeking attention, I'm not here to become popular, I'm just bored and I want to be able to leave comments on other's blogs.
Have a nice day, whoever you are... :)
I've been here for more than a month already, since June 7. I have a little less than a month left to be here, till August 2. I'm at a loss of words, really. I'm not going to write about my time here in Israel, it's not a travel journal. I just feel the need to... may be I'm trying to escape this feeling of loneliness. I miss my parents, we lived here together. I talk to them every day on Skype, but still, I'd love to have them here, enjoy the sea, the walks in the parks... I miss my childhood.
I'm staying at my aunt's apartment. It's really nice, I love the balcony - it's big and open, she has a lot of plants here, and I like drinking coffee out, looking at all the other balconies, the people keeping their windows open, gathering with guests outside; watching the bats whiz by at night... I remember being really scared of them. I bet if one comes too close now I'd scream.
My aunt usually goes to the sea on Saturdays, but today we went to the "shouq" (an open market-place in Hebrew, and yes, I know the language) in the neighboring arab village, and she had some other business to attend to, and as there are no buses on Saturdays, I'm sitting at home and planning to go to the beach tomorrow. It's really sad being alone... I'm fine, I'm used to this, but when it's summer, and you're by the sea, and there's no-one to take a silly picture of you... yes, I can ask a stranger, but it's not the point...
So I'm entertaining myself by watching movies, reading books, listening to audiobooks from my summer to-read list for university (The Lord of The Rings is amazing!), and watching my youtube subscriptions. Talking of which... I really miss Elle's (AllThatGlitters21) videos. I'm so happy for her and her sister Blair. Girls that work so much and so hard... The don't give up and achieve what they want, doing what they like. I really-really need to work hard and follow their example, cause sometimes I feel I do what I have to, not what I like, and I'm too lazy and scared to follow my dreams. I know the girls are busy and they have their lives to live, I've never felt that they have to make videos for me because I'm subscribed to their channels. This is so stupid, I can hardly believe that people like this exist... well, it's not what I want to discuss. I miss the videos, but I understand. The good thing is that they have blogs, which is great! and it's one of the reasons why I am sitting here writing all this, things that won't make sense to anyone, but it's not even the point. If you want to read this, comment, contact me - you are welcome, but I'm not seeking attention, I'm not here to become popular, I'm just bored and I want to be able to leave comments on other's blogs.
Have a nice day, whoever you are... :)
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